....literatly. So I know that everyone knows that I am going through a really hard time however, I don't want this to be all about that by any means. Even if I don't show it, that takes up more of my day than some may know.
Soo almost a year ago I started myself on a challange to shape up my life. It started as just a little bet between my coworker and myself... but turned out to be something much more life changing. I'm not going to post numbers on here because that is all still a little bit toooo scary for me. I will tell you that in one year I have lost 63 lbs!!
Due to my lung complications I have not been able to work out yet this year... but I am getting back on the ball. My overall goal is only 25 lbs away!
So embark on this journey with me if you will.... hopefully it wont take tooo much longer to reach where I want to be.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
A new start
...seems to be a current theme in my life. Although I find myself sitting on the floor just looking at the pieces and not knowing how to feel whole again. It's not an easy thing to swallow when the man you love and plan to marry tells you that he needs time alone... and time to see if we can be. You start second guessing yourself and your whole entire being. Did I do enough? Love enough? Am I enough?
I've dodged most everyone that wants to talk about it, it's just to hard to face and deal with. I don't really know how to view the situation myself without having to explain it. All I know is a have a dark hole where my heart is supposed to reside.
Regardless of what happens I just want to find my happiness again. I've gone through so much the first few months of this new year.... I just want to be happy. Which brings me here... my dear friend suggested I start a blog. I am taking her advice and hopefully I can keep up with it even though I think my life is rather dull and boring.
This is my place to express myself, let go of emotions, and keep track of my weight loss gloals (another reason I started).
So thank you to my dear friend, know that I think you are an amazing woman.
I've dodged most everyone that wants to talk about it, it's just to hard to face and deal with. I don't really know how to view the situation myself without having to explain it. All I know is a have a dark hole where my heart is supposed to reside.
Regardless of what happens I just want to find my happiness again. I've gone through so much the first few months of this new year.... I just want to be happy. Which brings me here... my dear friend suggested I start a blog. I am taking her advice and hopefully I can keep up with it even though I think my life is rather dull and boring.
This is my place to express myself, let go of emotions, and keep track of my weight loss gloals (another reason I started).
So thank you to my dear friend, know that I think you are an amazing woman.
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