A new start

...seems to be a current theme in my life. Although I find myself sitting on the floor just looking at the pieces and not knowing how to feel whole again. It's not an easy thing to swallow when the man you love and plan to marry tells you that he needs time alone... and time to see if we can be. You start second guessing yourself and your whole entire being. Did I do enough? Love enough? Am I enough?

I've dodged most everyone that wants to talk about it, it's just to hard to face and deal with. I don't really know how to view the situation myself without having to explain it. All I know is a have a dark hole where my heart is supposed to reside.

 Regardless of what happens I just want to find my happiness again. I've gone through so much the first few months of this new year.... I just want to be happy. Which brings me here... my dear friend suggested I start a blog. I am taking her advice and hopefully I can keep up with it even though I think my life is rather dull and boring.

This is my place to express myself, let go of emotions, and keep track of my weight loss gloals (another reason I started).

So thank you to my dear friend, know that I think you are an amazing woman.