Ay, Already??

haha.. well that title is an inside joke. But anywho.. In my workout running sessions I skipped to week two, week one was just a tad boring for me.

Week 2:

5 min brisk walk warm-up
6- 90sec runs with 2 min cool downs in between
5 min cool down walk

Still not bad....yet. Lol

Had chest xrays this morning... lets hope things are looking good. I think my ovaries are going to be shot with all the radiation I have been exposed to in the past 4 months. Speaking of this year, I think I could write a book with what I've encountered thus far. lol

I'm a little random today... but I'm exctied that I might be able to go to Colorado and see good friends this summer! Too bad there wont be snow... but given my track record this year skiing might not be such a great idea anyways, might end up in the hospital again. LOL

Hmm.. excited about school starting. I know that will change once it all begins, I will be ready to get out. Just waiting on the whole financial aid thing to come through... or well student loan. Last fall, they granted me 1 dollar for financial aid.. what the heck?!!?

Anywho.. I dont think I have anything else to ramble on about, so later gators!!

Running on E

Thats how I feel here lately...but I am getting things done for me. I registered for summer session.. it begins in about a month, it's exciting going back. Have to work on making me happy :)

So since I purchased the lovely iTouch.. I downloaded a podcast "Couch to 5k"... I'll run a little bit but I dont really do long distance runs. This podcast actually breaks down a 5k and trains you to run it. I know its only 3.1 miles... but to me that seems like forever! Lol So I will work on getting there, plus my usual workouts.

Week 1:
5 minute brisk walk warmup
8 - 1 minute runs with 90 sec rests in between
5 minute cool down walk..

This wasnt bad obviously... so I will keep ya up to date on how it goes.

So here is a different picture that shows you the progress that I have made. I didnt want to post it..but I have came a long way and that is all that matters.. and with that I should be proud.

Things are looking good around here...

Last month was a really hard month for me. But I am glad to say that it seems April is a whole lot better. I've been able to pick myself up off the ground (thanks to some INCREDIBLE friends). I've been hanging out with a lot of my friends here in SA.. so that has been really great and helps keep my mind busy.

Had a really good day at the gym yesterday, although I think I am not able to function today. I did my hour of cadio (always do that when I go to the gym)... went to body combat (Kickboxing) for an hour... and then I went to Zumba with an old high school friend. I've always loved body combat but zumba really suprised me, I had a lot of fun. I just need to get out to some clubs or take dance lessons so I dont look so white in the class. Haha! So besides that... back to working out 5 days a week... and trying to fit gym classes in the schedule as well.

Soo even though I reallyyyyy didnt want to, I thought I would post pictures from then and where I am now. The difference is well... wow. I dont usually see it in myself when looking in the mirror.. but when looking at pictures you just can not deny it.

Those were all from last year I believe before I got on my big work out kick.

Here is the now so far:

I'll work on getting some more new ones...

Now... here we go!

Well I've done good with going back to the gym everyday. Some days I do have little issues with my lung. I thought they said I would never notice that some of my lung was missing??!?! Not to bad though, it's nice to have a healthy outlit.

So I would really like to lose 20lbs. That would be great! The only thing is I gotta get back on track to eating well. So I would really like to be there the sooner the better... but I am trying to give myself the goal of August.

I'm really excited to start back up with kickboxing too... all the more cardio helps!!!

I'm not going to post my numbers on here...(duh im a girl... weight is like age.. we just dont tell) but I will tell the progress I have made lb wise!

Wish me luck! :)  (Now its time for me to get off my bum!!)

Losing it

....literatly. So I know that everyone knows that I am going through a really hard time however, I don't want this to be all about that by any means.  Even if I don't show it, that takes up more of my day than some may know.

Soo almost a year ago I started myself on a challange to shape up my life. It started as just a little bet between my coworker and myself... but turned out to be something much more life changing. I'm not going to post numbers on here because that is all still a little bit toooo scary for me.  I will tell you that in one year I have lost 63 lbs!!

Due to my lung complications I have not been able to work out yet this year... but I am getting back on the ball. My overall goal is only 25 lbs away!

So embark on this journey with me if you will.... hopefully it wont take tooo much longer to reach where I want to be.

A new start

...seems to be a current theme in my life. Although I find myself sitting on the floor just looking at the pieces and not knowing how to feel whole again. It's not an easy thing to swallow when the man you love and plan to marry tells you that he needs time alone... and time to see if we can be. You start second guessing yourself and your whole entire being. Did I do enough? Love enough? Am I enough?

I've dodged most everyone that wants to talk about it, it's just to hard to face and deal with. I don't really know how to view the situation myself without having to explain it. All I know is a have a dark hole where my heart is supposed to reside.

 Regardless of what happens I just want to find my happiness again. I've gone through so much the first few months of this new year.... I just want to be happy. Which brings me here... my dear friend suggested I start a blog. I am taking her advice and hopefully I can keep up with it even though I think my life is rather dull and boring.

This is my place to express myself, let go of emotions, and keep track of my weight loss gloals (another reason I started).

So thank you to my dear friend, know that I think you are an amazing woman.